For the next 30 days I will be posting an “I am” post. A lot of times we fill our minds with I can’t, I won’t, I should have, I could have, or I am scared of. For the next thirty days I challenge you to change your thinking, we are more than capable of doing anything we put our minds to.
I Am Worthy.
Recently in a class I was taking at my church we talked about praying and the prayers that were answered and as I was detailing the prayers that I prayed and those that were answered I started talking about how I didn’t really pray for myself. As I was speaking and through conversations with others that were present it dawned on me that I did not feel worthy of God’s blessings.
This bothered me for quite some time, I had to really dig in and figure out why I felt this way. Yes, I have sinned. Yes, I have strayed away from God. But I am forgiven, I repented. Why wasn’t I worthy of His blessings? As I dug deeper I realized that this feeling of unworthiness started as a child. I was raised in church I knew to pray for things and for people, but as a child those things I prayed for rarely happened. This is where this feeling of unworthiness came from because God did not feel the need to answer my prayers then when I needed Him the most so why would He answer them now?
This feeling of unworthiness followed me for a long time, I often shut myself in or didn’t apply myself because of this feeling. It wasn’t just unanswered prayers that made me feel this way, but it was the world I grew up in, the things that failed, and the people that hurt me. I wasn’t worthy of love, I wasn’t worthy of peace, I wasn’t worthy of promotion. For every denial that I received I took the blame it wasn’t them it was me, I didn’t deserve it.
After going through all the memories and digging in God’s word deeper I realized that those things that I prayed for, the lost relationships, the constant denials they weren’t for me. If God gave us everything that we asked for who or what would we be? I had to realize that a lot of my prayers were answered it just wasn’t the answer I wanted or maybe they were answered later on and I just didn’t realize it at the time. Today I can better handle circumstance that don’t work in my favor because I know God has something greater in store for me. Today I know that I am worthy of every blessing that God has stored up for me.
If you, like myself, have felt this way or currently feel this way please know that you are worthy of all the things that your heart desires. God doesn’t make mistakes and He doesn’t close one door without opening another. Look in the mirror and tell yourself “I am worthy”. Now scream it to the mountain tops “I Am Worthy!” Now believe “I am worthy.” Tell it to yourself throughout the day “I am worthy.” Every time you catch a glimpse of yourself say it “I am worthy.” A change in your thinking will change your whole world.
God has you in the palm of His hands. -Isaiah 49:16-
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