I have come to the most beautiful place in my life. A place where peace, joy, love, and endless possibilities meet. A place of faith and certainty that it will all work out. My whole life has been an uphill battle, I decided, not to long ago, to get off the hill and live life every day in faith knowing that God’s grace is sufficient. Getting here wasn’t easy, many nights I cried, many days I gave up, but after each of those moments I got up and started again. Sitting here reflecting over how far I’ve come, how at peace I am, I feel so much love. This isn’t just self-love; this is love from a Father to a child.
I have never been so sure about anything in my life, but at this moment I know without a shadow of doubt that everything is going to be okay. I have let go of everything that I thought I wanted, everything that I thought I needed and have given it completely to God. You see I know everything is going to be okay because God can’t fail, He cannot tell a lie, so when He tells me He has me in the palm of His right hand, I believe that I live in that. I often thank God for being who He is because without Him there is no me. I cannot take credit for anything that I have because on those days that I gave up He stepped in and carried me.
Although I have always believed in God, I never trusted Him like I do now. I would pray and ask God to fix a problem or ask him to bless me with something and then I’ll get up and attempt to fix it myself, often making it worse than it was. Now I have learned to pray and wait. Only moving when I feel that it is God that is moving me or that it is God sending me my answer. In the process of me trying to fix things on my own I was stressed, angry, and confused. Now my decision to fully lean and depend on God has led me to where I am today.
Today I can enjoy the beauty in each day because I trust Him to go before me and make crooked places straight, I trust him to protect my family and let no harm come to my home, I trust him in troubled times and I trust him in good times, and I trust Him to provide. It wasn’t easy getting here, trusting in something that you cannot see never really is, but one day I took a long hard look back over my life and I could see God’s hand in everything. He has showed me time and time again that He got me and for that I am forever grateful.
Where are you at today, in life? What are you holding on to? What problems are you trying to fix? What are you needing help with today? If you would like to, please share your thoughts below. If you just need someone to pray for you, type you name below, and I will do just that.
God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? -Numbers 23:19-
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Thank you for this post. I have been feeling lost for months ever since I lost most of my work when my hard drive failed. I have been angry that all my work past, present and future was basically lost. Now I have to start over again. It isn’t easy. Where is God in this?
There is another way to look at this, when you started you had no experience, now you are starting again with experience. So you didn’t lose you gained. God I ask that you be with Amanda give her the wisdom she needs to recreate everything that she lost, lead and guide her dear Lord. Help the words flow freely from her mind dear Lord. I ask that you bless her efforts so that she can be a blessing to others. In your son Jesus name I pray this prayer, Amen